Blossoms on the Horizon...

So I am looking forward to this weekend... have I mentioned that? lol Amanda is set to come in around midnight on Thursday (yay red eye!). She'll be bunking on the couch while I take up residence on the chase in Sakura's room. I've made sure to stock up on her living necessities (Dr.Pepper) .

Unpleasant news about Friday. Its suppose to rain!
And Friday was going to be the day I took Sakura to see the blossoms. Which have just hit stage 5 ( See picture) . So she may or may not join us on Sunday for that. We'll be dropping her off to school and probably trolling around some local places like Esoterica and some shopping. No point in killing ourselves walking D.C. if Saturday and Sunday are suppose to be sunny. *knock on cherry wood ;) *

My kimono jacket has come in but I missed the delivery so I'll have to pick it up at the post office one of these nights. It's so difficult when I don't have a car and Bobby's usually late getting home.
I really hope it fits. I'm not even close to my pre-pregnant size but >.<)/ I'm on my way!

The wig I got in is REALLY cute. I'm glad I chose the short one instead of the long one. Its a convenient head cover for the sun that will be out. My poor cotton candy hair just doesn't do much for protection.

Sakura learned a new trick on Sunday. She screams like someone has stepped on her foot. She likes do do this just for fun. And sometimes when she wants food. Evil, evil baby.

Anyway, Saturday we'll be in D.C. on the mall for the parade and Japanese street festival. We'll be easy to spot if anyone else is going to be out there.

I'm going to try one of the peddle things on the nasty pond by the memorial. They look fun. And Sunday we'll be doing a Cherry Blossom River Tour . It takes passengers around the blossoms in West Potomac Park (rarely seen by land-lubbers), along the great monuments and then arriving at the Jefferson Tidal Basin. I'll be taking lots of pictures and posting them on my Facebook and few on here. I'll be doing an anti-rain dance tell then. ;)

Astrology ...

So nothing too eventful this week. *knock on wood*
Sakura is fully recovered, *knock on wood*
I'm starting to feel a little better *knock on wood*
Bobby doesn't seem to have caught the bug
*knock on wood* . lol

I took Sakura last night with me to class because Bobby had to have quite to focus on work. She was very well behaved surprisingly. She was full of smiles and laughs, turned on the charm as usual. Did not fuss tell the very end when she was tired. So I popped her in her car seat and rocked her to sleep.

This weeks class was on basic astrology. I learned some interesting facts. Did you know when you read your horoscope your reading your Sun Sign? Which is how you present yourself to the world around you. But not who you emotionally are on the inside.

A long time back when the New York Times were first about to print horoscopes in the paper they decided to put the Sun Sign in instead of the Moon sign because it was shorter. The Moon sign is usually longer, pages longer and goes into detail about who you are on the inside. I didn't know that. Here are pieces of my Astrology chart. There are more planets and descriptions that mean things but these are the basic.

My sun sign :

Sun is in 15 Degrees Scorpio.

Intense and complex by nature, you have extremely strong emotional reactions to most situations. Feelings are often very difficult for you to verbalize. Therefore you have a tendency to be very quiet - - to brood and think a lot. You seldom get overtly angry, but, when you do, you are furious and unforgiving. When you make an emotional commitment, it is total -- you are not attracted to superficial or casual relationships. If you are challenged, you take it as a personal affront and tend to lash out and fight back in a vengeful manner. You love mysteries and the supernatural. A good detective, you love getting to the roots of problems and you enjoy finding out what makes other people tick. You are known to be very willful, very powerful and quite tenacious!

My moon sign :

Moon is in 09 Degrees Taurus.

Warmth, comfort, security and familiar surroundings are necessary for you to feel at ease. Very loving and affectionate, you prefer a steady, patterned way of life. Patient, calm and steadfast, you are not easily upset. Others look to you for support. You tend to be a slow starter and a slow mover -- others may try to rush you, but they will never succeed. Emotionally, you are quite stubborn -- your attitudes about people and things were firmly set in your youth and will change very little as an adult. You are also very cautious and conservative about spending money. It is not that you are selfish, you just need to feel secure. Beware of a tendency to become overly complacent and too self-satisfied.

If you get a chart with a Node in it, it means that this is what you should aim towards being more like.

My Node :

N. Node is in 27 Degrees Taurus.
It's not in your nature to seek out many casual acquaintances in your daily round of activities. You feel much more comfortable with a small, close-knit group of people -- those with whom you can relax and work toward known and clearly defined goals. Your loyalty to a person or group, once given, is forever -- you'll expend all of your quite considerable energy in seeing that the group stays together and prospers. You choose your partners and relationships so carefully that you're bound to gain certain advantages from them, including those of a material nature. Be careful though not to let mere self-service be your motivation in establishing your connections -- make sure that there's an even give-and-take!

Check out this site, you can get a good summary on yourself for free.

http://alabe.com/freechart/

It works better if you know the specific time you were born at.

Long week....

It's been a long, rough week. Sakura caught Influenza and was full blown sick Wednesday the 18th. I had to take three days off of work. Her temperature kept jumping randomly and even got up 104 once. She'd cling to me like a kawala and if I tried to move her at all she'd squeal like a banshee. She didn't sleep much during the day or at night. She didn't eat much. She'd throw up. And she had a very stuffy congested nose. Which I was constantly sucking snot out of so she's get some air.

I am learning what the definition of Mom is. With Bobby sick and no family around. I had no one to relieve me if I was too tired or stressed. In a way its a bit like being a single mother. And I truly feel for single mothers now. Having made it out of the haze of this week of sickdom I know I've come out with future knowledge and more stamina but it was a hard, hard learning experience. I sat and thought about how my mother must have done this a million times for my brother, sister and I . And have new respect for her.

I went online and ordered a ticket for May 7th-11th to go down and visit my family. Especially my mom for mother's day. I'm even going to suck it up and attend mother's day at her church. So she has the opportunity to show her granddaughter off. I figured Sakura is too young to be impressionable and it would make my mom happy. Although the thought of stepping in side a Mormon church gives me the willys. Oh well, like I said this is for mom.

Happy Ostara!

Today is Ostara although I celebrated with my class yesterday at Esoterica in Leesburg. It was wonderful to get out after being in the house for two days without the internet, taking care of a very sick baby and dazing out from sleep deprivation.

For our ritual we started by opening a standard circle, calling the corners and elements, chanting and what not and then we wrote a goal we wished to work on this year on a piece of paper. Which we folded, lite on fire and then dropped it in a small pot we had planted seeds in. Our teacher then smashed the ashes with her athame (small sword) into the soil of the pot. So that as the plant grows we can focus and remember our goal. After we closed the circle we munched on chocolate and pastry. I was surprised though not many people brought stuff to share. My hazelnut eggs were popular. Which I'm glad because they were eaten and less temping to me. lol I bought a book about Ostara for Sakura when she's a little older. I plan on doing that for each of the eight Sabbats. It was fun and I'll post a cute story our teacher told us as soon as I dig it up. Here's a little description about Ostara for those who aren't familiar with it.

Ostara takes place on the Spring Equinox and is the second spring festival. It is a celebration of rebirth, renewal and fertility as the Mother Goddess has returned to her maiden status and reunites with the young God; together they plant the seeds of the coming year in her womb. Although this festival doesn't have a strong historical connection, it is traditionally the time the ground is prepared and the early, harder crops are planted. In modern times is a time when projects are organized and set into motion.

As a time of balance of not only day and night, but of the masculine and feminine energy, it is a time for new beginnings or revitalizing old projects. Many prosperity rituals are performed on this day as a way of connecting personal success to the fertility of the seasons. As the days grow longer and the crops grow to eventually bear fruit, so shall the person be blessed with their needs and wants being granted.

Celebrations include lighting fires, ringing bells and hard-boiled eggs. The eggs represent the Goddess of Fertility. The whites represent the feminine, while the yoke represents the masculine. Eggs were gathered to be used as talismans or ritually eaten as a fertility blessing. This day is also special to the Goddess Eostre; her patron animal was the hare. The hare and rabbit's represent fertility and prosperity.

Using many of the traditional pagans symbols and traditions, Christians created Easter. Although there are several differences in the traditions, the primary focus is on rebirth and growth.

Saint Patricks Day

Saint Patrick's Day is celebrated worldwide by the those of Irish descent and increasingly by non-Irish people (usually in New Zealand, Australia, and North America). Celebrations are generally themed around all things Irish and, by association, the color green. Both Christians and non-Christians celebrate the secular version of the holiday by wearing green, eating Irish food, Irish stout, Irish Whiskey or Irish Cream and attending parades.

And or getting drunk and acting stupid!
I personally like to celebrate by dressing up like a dork and running around bar hopping. Here's a picture from '07 when I was a leprechaun. '08 I was out preggie and well I might sneak out for a mojito or two this year but nothing grand. *sigh* Responsibility sucks sometimes. Hm, I think I look good as a redhead.

I'm...

I'm broke but I'm happy
I'm poor but I'm kind
I'm short but I'm healthy, yeah
I'm high but I'm grounded
I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed
I'm lost but I'm hopeful baby
What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be fine fine fine
'cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving a high five
I feel drunk but I'm sober
I'm young and I'm underpaid
I'm tired but I'm working, yeah
I care but I'm restless
I'm here but I'm really gone
I'm wrong and I'm sorry baby

What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be quite alright
'cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is flicking a cigarette
And what it all comes down to
Is that I haven't got it all figured out just yet
'cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving the peace sign
I'm free but I'm focused
I'm green but I'm wise
I'm hard but I'm friendly baby
I'm sad but I'm laughing
I'm brave but I'm chickenshit
I'm sick but I'm pretty baby

And what it all boils down to
Is that no one's really got it figured out just yet
'cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is playing the piano
And what it all comes down to my friends
Is that everything's just fine fine fine
'cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is hailing a taxi cab...

Debating...

I purchased this kimono jacket for the cherry blossom festival and also for me to wear in pictures with Sakura. I was going to go with a full length kimono and obi but decided against it this year. With her so little and all the walking we intend to do, something more flexible and light would probably be best. Now what I'm currently debating is wig or no wig? I am digging on this little pink and white bob, its dirt cheap. I had an artisan from Etsy.com create a portrait cherry blossom hat for Sakura but the blossoms just don't look right on the hat. Since they come on a clip I was thinking of attaching them to my hair instead. Or in this case the wigs hair. I'm hoping my friend Amanda will be able to come down and join us for the festival. She's really into the Japanese culture and Anime. So having her along would make it more fun. And I haven't seen her in ages. The carrier you see above is a Babyhawk carrier and so far I like it. Its very comfortable but Sakura is still too little right now to carry on the back. I think by April 4th she might be able to try again. If not I'll front pack her. The carrier I have is black with the front patch a blue/pink cherry blossom spray. ;)

The first day....

This blog will be about my day to day thoughts, whats going on in my life, my families lives, or about nothing in particular. Just my blog. Let me fill you in on whats current.

*Oh and by the way, please no comments on my poor grammar or spelling. I really hate that.*

I'm 24 years old and just became a new Mum on October 15th 2008. Sakura Autumn Player came into this world at 8:08 weighing 6lbs 12oz and was 20 inches long. She's the Sun, the Moon and the Stars to me. I never really understood my life or my purpose on earth until she arrived. I had lost a child four years prier, Damien. Loosing him left me shattered and lost for a long time. There will always be a hole in my heart where he was meant to be. But having Sakura here in my arms has helped heal allot of that hurt from having them empty for so long. It was a long, hard, high risk pregnancy. I owe my husband Bobby allot for without him she would not be here. Being on bed rest for all those months, daily shots, weekly doctor visits and my constant preggie nagging. If there was a husband of the year award it would have gone to him. He has always been my hero and someone I look up to.
We currently live in Ashburn, VA. I fell in love with Virginia the moment I saw the cherry blossoms. I've never been a big fan of spring but that was spring in Utah. Spring in Virginia is like an explosion of color. Flowers everywhere of all sizes, shades and shapes. If you have allergy's I warn you this is the worst time to visit. But all who don't I welcome you to visit during April-May. Especially April during the Cherry blossom Festival. I named my daughter Sakura for many reasons. But you can guess the obvious ones. I'll have photos of her up soon in her Blossom Photos. She'll have them done once a year during the festival time. And of course around her birthday in October. >_<)/ I love that I get to have costume birthday parties every year!